My sweet sunshine,
Oh baby… your big sister made a wish, and somehow the universe listened. And now you are here. Almost three months old. Curled in my arms. Real. Warm. Mine.
Deep inside my heart, I always knew I needed you. But it took me time to gather the courage to have you. Not because I didn’t want you — but because I was scared. Scared of the unknown. Scared of the what-ifs. Scared of loving this deeply again.
But the moment I knew I was ready, I didn’t hold back.
You were just a teeny, tiny frozen embryo the first time I saw you on the screen. A cluster of hope. A miracle waiting for its moment. It was such a beautiful sunny day when daddy and I went in for your embryo transfer. I remember the light pouring in, almost as if the world already knew you were coming. I was so happy… and so anxious. My heart full of hope and prayers for you.
I was determined to make this transfer work. To bring you home. Our home.
And you stuck, baby boy.
At the time, I didn’t even know you were a boy. But somehow, I knew you were meant to be ours. Every word I write feels small compared to the love I feel for you. You made me understand that love doesn’t divide — it multiplies. It grows in ways the heart doesn’t think it has space for… until it does.
You are everything we prayed for and more. Thank you for choosing us. Thank you for choosing me to be your mama.
From a tiny embryo to the first time we heard your heartbeat… from a flicker on a screen to the sweetest baby boy in my arms — we have come such a long way. 2025 was the year of growing you. And what a sacred, beautiful year it was.
This pregnancy was different. I was stronger. More confident. The fears didn’t grip me the same way. Somewhere deep inside, I just knew — you are mine. You are coming home to us. No matter the hurdles, no matter the storms, we would get through them. We were ready. And so were you.
We found out we were pregnant on March 25th, 2025 — just five days after the transfer. I had promised myself I wouldn’t test early this time. I wanted to wait. To protect my heart.
But on the evening of March 24th, something felt different. I can’t explain it. Maybe a mother’s intuition doesn’t need logic. Maybe my heart already recognized yours.
And then Luna started rubbing herself against me. Unusual — but also strangely familiar. She did the same thing when I was pregnant with your sister. That was the moment I caved.
The next morning, I took the test.
Two bright pink lines.
I remember my hands shaking as I called daddy. My voice is breaking. And oh, he was over the moon. He was so full joy and pride. Also told me "I did it". And then, I called everyone we loved and said the words we had been waiting to say — “It worked. He’s growing. He’s here.”
Pregnancy is a roller coaster. And this one tested me — physically and mentally. It revealed parts of me I didn’t know existed. It showed me a silent strength I didn’t recognize before. The kind where you’re weathering a storm inside — pain, fear, hope, exhaustion — and yet you keep sailing. Quietly, and yet steadily.
Inaaya is my wildflower. Free, spirited, blooming in her own beautiful way.
And you — you are my sunshine. Warm. Steady. Radiant.
You both are twins from different years. Bound not by time, but by destiny. When our little wildflower made a wish, we knew we had to bring our sunshine home.
And now you’re here.
In my arms. In our lives. In every corner of our hearts.
If you ever wonder how deeply you are loved, how intentionally you were chosen, how fiercely you were prayed for — read this again. You were courage. You were faith. You were hope made visible.
My sweet boy, my sunshine — we were always meant to find you.
Forever yours,
Mama
P.S Mama wouldn't have done this on her own. So I want to make sure you know, who the special people are, who have always held mama through it all. It takes a village, and this is mama's village.
They are mama's family and her chosen family.
Nana, Dada, and Riyu Masi have loved you since you were a tiny embaby. We are so lucky to be loved and cared for by them. They love you so much!!!
Sonna masi, she has a heart of gold. When she shows up for you, she does with all her heart. Sonna, if you are reading this, know that your shine is precious. We are so lucky to have you in our lives.
Vats, is only a call away. You need her, and she is there. She is loving and the coolest masi you need in your life. Thank you for always saying the right thing to me, being there for me always in ways I needed you, and also in every way I didn't know I needed!
Tanu masi has heard it all. She was there when the doctor called to share your results, and tell me how strong an embaby you are.
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